"allll by myysellffff" (sing along with me)

i've realised recently that one of the things i value above all others is honesty. even if it it's in the form of bluntness. i can't stand two-facedness (yes, i probably just made up a word) or sycophancy. it drives me nuts. so in the spirit of things i thought i'd get down to some bare bones honesty, raw emotion similar to some of last summer's postings.

that's not to say by any means that up till now i've been less than honest. it's just it's frequently taken on a "i got up, i had my cornflakes, i went to the darkroom" kind of tone (i have been there an awful lot recently) and anything omitted has been done so purely to protect the individuals involved. and possibly my parents, in case they ever happen to stumble across this. although let's hope not.

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okay, i started writing this, and have come back to it a while later and have forgotten all the eloquent ramblings i was going to post, so i'll just sum it up, very briefly.

it can get kinda lonely over here.

i don't miss london or england. i love new york. Love it with a capital 'L'. no, wait, with a capital L O V and E. it's so my city.

but i miss the quality of friends i have back home. you know, where you can just call someone up and be like "i'm bored/blue/grumpy/want to celebrate, let's hang". when you have that complete safety net of people around that you don't realise how much you take for granted until you move 3000 miles away. i think it's especially because there's been a lot of stuff going on at home recently, and i've been a little bit sad that i haven't been there to help out (or crack open the champagne). but i can't imagine not being in this city, so it's a bit of a conundrum.

maybe this is just a hangover from L. being here and having a best friend on this side of the pond for a while. who knows.

the sun will come out tomorrow, and other chirpy american warblings...

(big shout outs to my imaginary friend-texting buddy for having someone to text in this timezone, and the NY crew/chinatown apt kids for all being super-welcoming and inviting me along places the whole time. much 'ppreciated, thank you. kisses)